Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Dating Update

So back to our usually schedule Blog Fodder....

Things with the Super are VERY good these days. We talk several times a day usually but have only been seeing eachother about once a week. He came over on Sunday night and we ordered pizza and watched "The Pacifier" he's a BIG Vin Diesel fan. We then went into the bedroom for some Adult fun. ;-) I love when he stays over, he's a big cuddler and very affectionate except....he SNORES! Very loudly I might add. I didn't get much sleep on Sunday night.

Monday night I was working at the Bucks and one of my ex-co-workers, Ben came into say Hello. I hadn't seen him since January when he transferred to another store. He asked me to take a break and come outside to catch up with him. Ben was my date to my Corporate Holiday party last Christmas. I had a HUGE crush on him at the time, eventhough he is 5 years younger then me I was very attracted to him. Nothing physical ever happened with Ben, just a lot of flirting. He asked for my number so we can go have beers sometime, Right On.

Then, when I got home Monday night I checked my e-mail and I had an e-mail from The Surfer, who I hadn't heard from since a week and half earlier when we went to dinner. I never posted about that date, so here's what happened in a nutshell: We met at the Wind & Sea for dinner, good food, good conversation but something was off. We then went for a walk around the harbor, I found myself at a loss of things to talk about. He wanted to go back to his place and go in the spa. I had brought my suit so I agreed to it. Things continued to get more awkward, nothing to talk about....the spa turned off at 10pm, community spa, so we went back to his place where we watched "Old School". He just laid there on his bed next to me, made NO moves. When the movie was over, I was out of there. He walked me to my car, gave me a hug and a quick kiss and I was off. I was positive that would be the last time I saw him. I didn't think I would hear from him either but, there it was an e-mail. But all it said was "Just wanted to say Hi, I'm sure you're as busy as ever. Talk to ya later." The Surfer.
Great e-mail huh? I'm so done with him. In the 3 months I have been dating him, he's called my like 5 times and usually prefers e-mail. Just seemed strange to me.

So then, there was also an e-mail from a guy I dated about a year ago, first guy I dated and slept with since the break-up with the EX. I hadn't heard from him for about 3 months. I e-mailed him back but haven't heard anything more. I'm not sure what he wanted...all he said was "So...what's new."

The men from the past are coming out of the woodwork again, but why? What do they want? They are so vague.

Well, I'm looking forward to Friday. The Super is taking me to the House of Blues in Anaheim this Friday to see his friends band play. I'm really looking forward to it! He wants to take me out for dinner and drinks before the show. I think this is going to be our 1st REAL date. Up until now we've just hung out really. Should be fun.

Well, it's time to go HOME!

See Later!


Friday, July 08, 2005

I'm Falling......

This past week has flown by! I've been working so much and have had so many social commitments I've hardly had a chance to breath.

Last weekend was awesome. The Super went to my friends 4th of July party with me and we had a blast! All of my friends LOVED him and he had a great time. I can feel myself falling for him. He gives me butterflies, he compliments me all of the time, he simply makes me feel special. He's definitely not someone I would've thought I would fall for but what can I say the heart wants what the heart wants.

The Super is moving out of his Ex's house tomorrow. We have talked extensively about our feeling for eachother and I have also let him know that I can not open my heart and soul up to him until he is free and clear of his last relationship. I can't believe how quickly he is doing that.

It wasn't a simple transition for him, he cares for his Ex, he's just not in love with her. She had a very hard time with it, she called me 3 times last weekend saying that she really wants to talk to me. I told the Super about it and told him to tell her that I don't want to talk to her, the two of them need to talk it out. He told me that I am NOT the reason he is leaving her, I'm just the one that pushed him to do it sooner then later. If that indeed is true, she shouldn't have anything to discuss with me.

Last night the Super and I had a Heart to Heart talk about his Ex and my feelings about how he withheld info about her from me in the beginning. I told him that had I known that they lived together in the beginning, I never would've gotten involved with him, I'm NOT that kind of person. I had a very selfish person destroy my relationship with my Ex. She had met me the same weekend she met my Ex and knew the status of our relationship yet she pursued him anyway. I certainly don't think I fall into the same category as her. As I started explaining that situation to the Super, I started to cry. I told him that since my break-up with my Ex over a year ago I haven't been able to trust a new guy with my heart, and I want to trust him with it but I'm having a hard time b/c of our situation. The Super has not lied to me, but he has withheld info. But once I asked him further questions he was honest with me. He promised me last night that he will never lie to me, he wants to be honest with me about everything and truly feels horrible for what he has put me and his Ex through in this situation.

He summed things up by saying something that really hit home with me. The night that we got together, was totally random, no one could've predicted it. There was alcohol involved and we both thought it would be a one time thing. But we both felt something that night while we were holding eachother in bed cuddling and kissing. When you feel that special "something" with someone, you lose control of your head and you follow your heart. He told me that I make him happier then he has ever been and he has spent way too much of his life being unhappy and looking out for other peoples feelings.

Maybe I'm just a fool in love, but those words and the sincerity in his voice took my breath away. I'm falling...HARD....and FAST. My heart is opening up, I hope he treats it with care.

Over n Out,


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